in the waiting

ever had your hopes up only to have them disappointed? yeah, me too.

ever felt like it was God who let you down? yeah. me too.

i’ve had Him promise some wild and crazy things to me, things that my logical and rational mind dismiss. “there is no way,” it says. “impossible.” 
but my faith and hope have grown strong over the years. they say yes, even to that which seems to make no … Read the rest

eat the mystery

a few weeks back, i found myself re-reading Ann Voskamp’s One Thousand Gifts. Spirit-filled and poetic, her words were like water for my thirsty soul.

and recently, i find myself going back to a particular passage, one i have underlined in ink and even copied into the pages of my own journal::

“when we are despairing, we can choose to live as Israelites gathering manna. for forty long years, God’s people daily eat manna–a Read the rest

o God, you are my God, earnestly i seek you; my soul thirsts for you, my body longs for you, in a dry and weary land where there is no water. (psalm 63.1)

yes. i am thirsty.
yes. i am needy.
yes. i am weary.
yes. i know this ache.
i’ve inhabited this dry and weary land for so, so long.

please don’t let me die in the desert.

open your eyes, child.
see the … Read the rest

this is not really about a chicken sandwich

for days, i’ve been a quiet observer to the entire Chick-fil-a controversy. since i’m not currently in the States, it’s been easy for me to watch it all go down from a detached point of view. (fyi: “watch it all go down” = a facebook and twitter feed full–i mean, FULL–of waffle fry photos, lineups of cars at CFA drive-throughs, and heartfelt apologies to the LGBTQ community from Christians who are embarrassed, disappointed, or … Read the rest

i found myself drawn to amos 9 this morning
and was very much comforted by the promise:: 

in that day, i will restore David’s fallen shelter–i will repair its broken walls and restore its ruins–and will rebuild it as it used to be. (amos 9.11)

restoration always comes after the destruction.Read the rest

we’ve each been woven into this great Story that is still being told;
we’ve each been given a part to play in the unfolding of it all.

every moment. a word. an action. each choice. they all mean something.

even the “small things” cannot have a small sphere of influence.
they reverberate
and affect
and are used by Someone
and for something
far beyond ourselves.

for each of us is connected
in this beautiful,
mysterious,… Read the rest

i am a Christian.
and i love the Church.

but sometimes, i wonder if she’s gotten so preoccupied [with who’s right & who’s wrong, conservative versus progressive, why this style of worship is better than this one, et cetera and et cetera] that she has forgotten the simplicity of her message.

“…God was (ie: IS) reconciling the world to himself in Christ, not counting men’s sins against them.” (2 corinthians 5.19)

let me repeat that.… Read the rest